Tonight I was unpacking one of the many boxes in my new apartment when I came across a box full of travel postcards, country flag patches, journals, photos, and notebooks from my semester abroad. I couldn’t help but sift through it all and look back on all of the good times I had while exploring Europe and making new friends, now family, along the way.
It was this semester abroad that I started writing daily and logging the adventures I went on, so it was fun to read through all of those old entries. I got nostalgic and felt a deep longing to go back. But the photos brought me to tears. I just started crying. I looked so genuinely happy and free in these photos. But then I found myself feeling really sad and missing my time overseas and all of a sudden questioning where I’m at in my life right now. I’m a recent college grad with an acting degree, no full time job (actors don’t really do those), a couple part time gigs here and there, but mostly just trying to navigate this new transition in my life. STUDYING ABROAD WAS SO MUCH EASIER! I think it just hit me tonight that this is a new beginning. And new beginnings can be scary, especially when you don’t know what to expect. There are no road maps for this.
But as I flipped through these old photos and read over these journal entries, I can see how much I’ve grown over the past two years. I know more about myself now than I ever have before, I know my values and my dreams, and I can always push through the challenging times. So I can do this, too. I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. We all are. Every moment and adventure from my past, every person I’ve met and connected with, every story I’ve heard and created has brought me here, to this moment. I carry all of these amazing memories with me and I will always hold them close to me.
I might not be traveling the world right now, but this new time in my life is certainly a new journey of its own and is the beginning of my next adventure. Let’s see where it takes me…
“And suddenly you know… It’s time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.”